Friday, October 28, 2011

First 2 weeks

What an insane time this is. I don't know if the anxiety and stress and exhaustion I feel is normal or if I'm spiralling out of control.
I'm scared by the idea of being alone with Samson and Rachel. Too scared to properly appreciate them yet.
I know the babies are doing well, growing like weeds. But I'm feeling sicker and less capable every day. We have a schedule that I think is working for now which has me, my Mom and Andrew feeding the babies in shifts. So what is wrong?
I think time will tell but for now I intend to spend every minute I can in bed. No expectations to do anything. I wish I felt up for company, I wish I felt up for getting dressed.
I'll give myself another couple of weeks though.
That photo shoot was a bad idea in took waaay too much out of me that I didn't have to give. Down the road I may feel differently.
I hope this next week brings more healing.


  1. Hang in there, Stacey. It's not easy by any means, and sleep deprivation takes an enormous toll. Like you say, lie down when you can, even if you can't sleep. Believe that it will get easier, because it will, and don't be afraid to ask for help.

  2. Hang in there hun!!! You have gone through sooooo much in the last few weeks, undoubtably your body is just telling you it needs to recover.

  3. Sorry you feel so run down. Hope your meds continue to make you feel better. I think those photos were a great idea and looking back, I wish I did that. Missed it TWICE with both kids. Things are always the hardest as we struggle through them. They have to pass before we get that clearer picture through hind sight. You are doing great, and keep positive :)