Sunday, June 4, 2017

Snapshots of today

The twins are 5 and a half, Cierra, 2 and a half and life is pretty darn great!
Sam has started holding my hand at random times when walking to or from school or in parks. He just casually holds on and walks close. We don't acknowledge it just take it as a given that we do this. But really it's quite novel, he hasn't held my hand since..... Well, maybe since Cierra was born and was taking over both my hands!
I am savouring the feeling of his still small slightly rough little paw in mine. He bites his nails and his hands tend to be a bit dry but he holds on to me like a trusting, affectionate child, which he is. And he won't be for all that much longer. I want to memorize the feel of his small hand in mine before he outgrows this stage and his hand outgrows mine.
Cierra still often sleeps with her little bum up in the air, just like a baby. But she just recently stopped saying, "I yo baby mommy!"  And she is so not a baby anymore, despite her declarations, "I not a big kid mommy! I CC! I not a big kid."
So she is my little CC, my little girl, not a big kid! But often I tempt her to try things by saying, "oh just like Rachel and Sam do!"
Rachel is a real momma's girl too these days, she and I are sharing some good quality time painting toe and finger nails, having tea parties and writing stories. But more than all that, I'm trying to ensure she gets as many hugs and special smiles and positive reinforcement as possible. She is so sensitive underneath the quiet, and responds so immediately to all my positive attentions. I just want to fill her up each day with all my love so she can take on the world.
I so love these little big kids of mine.